# Paused objectives

This last month has been really unproductive for me. But it's not just last month. In some sense it's life. In some sense, it's not anything new. I'm hoping maybe if I write a bit about it again, it'll give myself a little kick for this month to make progress on a few things. And over the next several months can come back here in disgust.

Mainly, here's just a list of things I've got ongoing that I've paused and want to continue and maybe actually finish some of them, with some excuses in parens. 1. Real-name website to use as a future hub for real-name business opportunities (consulting) written in CL (low effort, if I just swallowed and used PHP like this blog still is I probably would have finished in one burst, but I'm trying to do things 'proper' with logging and monitoring and...). 2. Continuing Japanese studies (brain started burning out near the end of trip and parrying new knowledge, since coming back at the end of January I've been lazy about continuing my studies that I need to continue, I made actual improvements in the last few months of 2022 that I don't want to lose). 3. Revisit and probably restart the game BGM course (I did the town theme in LMMS and started on a character theme, but stopped, and haven't gotten back to it, probably need to restart but at least I'll have all my sound packs and sound fonts still installed, they were fun to play with and learn how they work a bit). 4. Continue Blender studies (I actually finished the donut tutorial! But I need to continue with more projects to solidify the knowledge, and work on some larger ideas, and eventually do a workflow of getting something into a game engine like godot). 5. Finish a game (at this point it doesn't have to be in CL, but I've got several CL things ongoing in various states.... a solarwolf clone, a clone of my old college game (shooter), a flappy clone with the idea that it can be used to teach lisp, a pathfinding playground to add more features to my a* implementation.. and a ton of ideas that I haven't even started on yet, like a fangame, a touhou-inspired game, a 3d rail shooter inspired game... Maybe 1 and 5 can be combined into a desire to program more, generally speaking). 6. Read more (I haven't been reading enough, and what I have been reading has been fiction, and a lot of that has been 'reading' in the form of audiobooks). 7. Play more games (I haven't even been playing many games or watching shows. My days are very unproductive, even when it comes to entertaining myself). 8. Get back into drawing exercises (started Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain, paused at the chair drawing exercise). 9. Send out postcards (got the messages typed up at least now, just need to write them and send, should be done this week). 10. Pick up the guitar again (it has literally been years since strumming anything despite having 3 guitars). 11. Some neglected yardwork/indoor cleaning and repairs (I keep things relatively clean but there's a few spots that need a deeper pass with my wet vacuum, been too lazy to get it out and do all that, and my bathroom that wasn't in the best shape when we moved in needs some recaulking, and an electrical outlet needs to be replaced, and I'm probably forgetting something...some of this is technically the landlord's job, which is partly why I haven't gotten around to it). 12. Close out some browser tabs (I've really let them get out of hand this time.. so many are youtube videos too). 13. Do some serious meditation (part of a needed effort to 100% confront myself over some things I've been shying away from and staying at 80-90%, it should be like using the sword of shannara). 13. Move (even if it's more than I want to pay, I should just Do It, and maybe force myself back into working). 14. Make a robot (or stand-in for putting my CE degree towards something instead of just screwing off to pure software afterwards)

Some things I've successfully (more or less) been keeping up with or finished: 1. Lifting weights (brief pause after a back twinge but mostly back at it now). 2. Default-keto dieting (either maintaining or losing weight, not strict dieting and I got sick finally this last week so no keto at all for me, but most of the time it's easy to default to no/low carbs which is good for me when I'm not walking miles every day). 3. Made a dreamcatcher and a poem for someone I care a lot about (it involved drilling some holes in stones too, took more effort than I thought it would, but I was happy with the results, and got a thank you for it). 4. Keeping my teeth health in check (no cavities in years).

#### Posted on 2023-03-06 by Jach

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